I promised you guys I’d keep updating you even though I’m not technically doing NaNo anymore.
I am still working on last year’s NaNo project. It’s been slow going, but I’m learning not to rush the process. I don’t want to rush my writing or rush my thought process. In the past I’ve had family members scold me for not writing at least 5k a day. Like that’s the lowest word count a person should achieve per day.
There is no “set” word count a person should have to meet in order to be a writer. And to think otherwise is crappy. A person is a “real writer” if that’s what they see themselves as. Even if they only write 250 words a day. Even if they spend an entire month outlining their next WIP.
I am taking this writing thing seriously, but I don’t want to stress myself out. When I stress out, my heart acts up and I really want to avoid that as much as possible.
I think I just have to conclude that NaNo is not the right avenue for me. I get burned out easily, my wrists scream in pain and the ideas hit a wall. I truly think NaNo (as great as it is for some people) just doesn’t work for me. It makes me sad thinking about that because I do have so many stories I want to tell.
I will tell them, just maybe in my own time, at my own pace.
The character’s from last year’s NaNo project are calling my name so I decided to return to them. To tell their story of strength, survival and the determination of the human spirit. I can’t say much more about it because I do want people to be surprised when I do finish it.
But I am working on it, slowly but surely.
NaNo just carries within it, a whole fuckton of pressure and usually I don’t fold under pressure, but this is another type of pressure. It’s self pressure, community pressure.
It’s constantly exhausting.
It makes me not want to write anymore.
In other words, it does the exact opposite of what it’s supposed to do.
Am I the only one who feels this way?
So it’s the end of Week Two of NaNoWriMo and while I’d love to say that I killed it this week like Bekka did (look at her post here) I didn’t. I lapsed into a bit of a funk with the writing and then, I think it was Tuesday of this past week that I started having severe wrist pain that was keeping me up at night. So I called the family doctor who also happens to be a family friend and he told me I needed to stop writing until I could go 24 hours without pain meds.
Carpal tunnel has been an issue for me over the past few years and since I use a wheelchair fairly frequently, I need for my hands to be in good shape.
I did make it to 20K in week one, so hopefully, I can start writing again next week after giving my wrist a week off.
If you’re doing NaNo, how are you doing?
So I promised you I’d do a more in depth post about NaNo. I struggled with what to talk about because I really don’t want to give away plot points, also known as spoilers. In the event that the book I’m working on, actually becomes a published novel, I don’t want anyone to know about the twists before reading it. So, to my future betas, don’t spoil it.
The frustrating part for me was deciding which of my ideas was I gonna tackle this time. Was it going to be the bisexual boy’s story. Or the female college student who fell for someone she never expected. Or any of the other 4 plot bunnies I had rolling around in my head. Which story idea was I going to tackle this month?
I thought I had it all planned out. I knew the story I was gonna write and I was excited to write it. On Halloween afternoon, I started having second thoughts. So I took to Twitter and polled my followers. I was curious to see what they would vote for, and unsurprisingly the votes went pretty much how I thought they would.
I am learning to trust my gut as a writer. I am learning to see which stories have legitimate potential and which stories will never be good no matter how much revision I put into them.
The story I chose to work on this month has staying power. It has the ability to turn into something amazing. I just cannot wait to see what this story & these characters have in store for me.
Are you doing NaNoWriMo this month?